I realized a few days into May that I’d forgotten to write what I learned in April. That was the month I moved to Dallas, began to do things with old friends. The details, now foggy. I’m sure there would have been something in there about my gratitude for my friend, Kelly, who is letting me live in her house. And there would be a few lines about doing long drives solo. Something like “It’s no fun.” Or “I don’t recommend it.” That drive is behind me now.
May was a difficult month, most of it spent with morning (and sometimes all day) nausea. On any given am, my mind was in a frenzy, particularly in the very early hours while it was still dark. There was fatigue and fear and adjustment. Cancelled appointments. Tears. A reaching out from one of my husband’s exes, notes compared. then validation for us both. A visit to the ER and a concussion. CPR class. Weekly therapy. Fingerprints for my RN license. The dentist. A tremendous upset involving my daughter ( everything is OK now). There was also Elizabeth Gilbert, the Engaged Artist Award. A visit with my son. Appointments with doctors and a new diagnosis. My weight finally settling on the same number day after day. A check written to me for work done. Time with extended family. The continued support of friends here, in DC and in Washington. The arrival of the initial divorce papers; they remain unsigned. That’s quite a lot in just 31 days.
The best thing about May, though, is that for the past week, there has been little to no nausea in the mornings!!!! That is the best thing about the month of May. Woo Hoo! Hallelujah! Yippee!
Patience, I’ve been writing about her from the very beginning. She’s still not my best friend. I am doing better. Somehow.
Mindfulness and breathing take tons of practice. One does improve over time. You just have to keep at it.
Friends can be truly amazing, especially if I allow them to help you.
I can stand up to my husband, stop putting him first. I’m the important one here.
The first medication you try doesn’t always work. Sometimes things get worse before getting better. Damn, those side effects. I learned I needed to just trust my doctor.
I can be hit with news that takes me completely by surprise. You never know what any given day might bring, including an award worth $5000.
Women can bond over various things. Put two together who have suffered at the hands of the same man, and POW!
I’ve learned to enjoy television again.
Fear can be paralyzing. You just put one foot in front of the other. And when that’s impossible to do, you just stand there a little longer before moving on.
Self-love is the best gift you can ever give yourself. It can also be the hardest to do.
Mockingbird males sing at night to attract females. They are as persistent as hell. And persistence is really a great characteristic to have.
The rain in Dallas has been a comfort to me.
If you keep following your passion, have faith, stay open, there’s no telling where you can go. You just keep moving forward. It requires work but is so worth it in the end.
God is always there. You have to be quiet, pay attention and wait. He is as close as your breath.
I don’t need to live with should’s and shouldn’ts. I am the master of my own ship, I decide what I want, what is best for me. It’s nobody else’s business how I spend my time.
You should never give up; tomorrow is almost always better after a night of sleep.
My children are my heroes. They take a tremendous load off my back just when I need it most.