What I’ve learned in the last 30 days.
Feeling quite weary thinking about this past month. Seems like it has lasted a VERY, VERY long time. New Year’s Eve with my kids in Lanka, going out dancing in the yard as my husband slept. A birthday celebration. Extreme stress carried over from at least two months back. A request to revisit the vows spoken publicly on August 8, 2015. Heartbreaking news, a separation. Saying goodbye to a place and a man. Another move to gain some stability. And now uncertainty about what comes next. A heavy dose of dread thrown in.
What have I learned in the month of January?
Patience, still my enemy. Working on it takes a long, long time.
You NEVER know what might happen on any given day.
Vows don’t always mean the same thing to everyone; it’s important to be on the same page with that. Ahead of time.
Life is confusing and with some things, you never get to figure them out.
Emotional pain is a zillion times worse than the physical kind.
Flying solo across the world for almost a day and a half, isn’t as bad as it sounds.
Once you get used to counting the time zone numbers on your fingers, it’s hard to stop.
It takes a long time to bounce back from a place like India.
People are overly kind.
People are selfish.
People exaggerate and make excuses.
People are supportive and generous.
Family can be your savior at times.
T-shirt weather in January in Kentucky makes me feel better.
I can do LOTS of things.
I am very capable.
A broken heart really takes the wind out of your sails.
I will have to get over my husband going to Thailand, our honeymoon destination, without me. It won’t be easy.
Not everyone looks at marriage in the same way. You need to be on the same page with that as well.
I need to learn a lot of lessons re what’s happened to me, take them forward. Apply them, or just never go there again.
Coming back to the US after being in a third world country for five months feels really great. But I’m thankful for the experience, just the same.
A little lotion on your skin does wonders.
The polish on my big toes lasted longer than my marriage-there’s still a little on the very ends.
I think I hear the lyrics of a C&W song coming on.
I believe my next pedicure (haven’t had one since August 7) will be the best one yet.
The Raven Run Nature Sanctuary in Lexington is my new home away from home.
Cracking an egg without worrying if you are going to get sick feels so good.
Finding an Anthropologie store in your new town makes you smile.
You have to go through all the stages of grief whether you want to or not.
And so much more.
So on to February. Here’s hoping my eyes will be wide open to see all the upcoming opportunities that lie ahead for me.
My hope is that I can sign off on me and the cows in the next day or so. The new blog, by email invitation only, with the name of the new site. First round has gone out, more to come. My FB friends can continue to message me with their email addresses as the new blog will not appear there. Thank you to those who responded to my ‘test’ on the new one, looks like it’s gonna work.